It's beginning to look like a no money, having, hyped up holiday, alone without my husband, BROKE - Christmas

I think for the first time in 26 years - I dont like Christmas. How dare the department stores and commercial makers make me feel guilty for not having any money to go trotting off to buy my lovely daughter Christmas presents galore. Im broke!

And I guess I spoke too soon in the wee hours of this morning in my letter to Frenchie, he,(Adams spawn) decides to treat a coworker for lunch - WHEN WE ARE BROKE. Also, I could have slapped my husband...........why you ask? Let me run it down for you - Ima give you the top 5 reasons why I wanted to pimp slap my husband:

1. MEN DONT THINK
2. MEN DONT THINK
3. MEN DONT THINK ABOUT ANYONE BUT THEMSELVES
4. MEN DONT THINK
5. Lastly, SORRY THEY DO THINK - WITH THEIR OTHER HEADS!

My husband decides that this is the week when he will be responsible and help me out a bit by going to the bank and making sure his check is deposited - EINSTEIN MOMENT APPROACHING -ah - here it is:

1. Our account was overdrawn - so we had like FIFTEEN (15) $35 overdraft fees - this ate up his check
2. He didnt deposit the check per BOAs rules -meaning "all deposits must be made before 4PM CENTRAL TIME in order to cover any incoming transactions on the close of business the same day of the deposit" so the overdraft fees kept coming even though we had money in the bank!
3. They decide to place a hold on my husbands check - just because they love Jesus and in the spirit of Christmas - so now what little moolah we had wont be available until - THE 29!

So our available balance is a big fat ZERO - because one of the three bank monopolies - BANK OF AMERICA - has decided that they will charge you overdraft fees based on your AVAILABLE balance - and put a hold on the same company check you have been depositing for months!

so no more going to the store, buying what you need, overspending on accident and saying - oh that's alright, I will just transfer the money from my savings - NOPE - they are gonna charge you $35 - even if the purchase is returned. Dont you just love our banking industry???

Back to my hub - he is leaving today, so he wont be here for Christmas - just me, so that smarts just all the more because I really cant do much for my baby girl - . I convey this to him in the NayLah way (NAG - ok I admit it) and of course he stomps off in the Garrett way (complete BUTTHOLE!) AND SLAMS our closet door (we have one of those home builders that decided that our closet has to be in our bathroom - you know to give more ROOM SPACE to your ROOM...) He pitched a fit! I do not want to argue with my husband - he is leaving - but do you see my distress - Have you seen our Christmas tree?? We had to wait until the last minute (yesterday) to buy an $11 tree - and AND I CANT FIND THE STUPID TREE DECORATIONS!

I am not going to cry. I am not going to cry. I am not going to cry. I am not going to cry. It is Christmas - my mom will be here, my uncle is out of prison after 10+5 years, I am alive, I am healthy compared to others, my daughter is healthy and I at least have $61 bucks minus the $12 bucks my hub had to pay for his one lone checked luggage bag. And I am not going to complain and cry. I will not cry. I should be happy. I am happily feeling dejected right now - hey I'm human.

I think I will go to the bank and take whatever is left out before they decide to eat it for New Years

Have a Happy, Merry, Good Christmas......harrumph!!