This years Christmas holiday has been one I would not like to revisit. It was a difficult one. If I haven't mentioned it already, I am assisting my husband with his cousins - a 12 year old and 17 year old while their mom re-cooperates in New Orleans from a radical Cervical Cancer surgery. So yup, it's like we have 2 additional kids.
I didn't sign up for this. Or maybe I did when I married my husband. I love kids though. I also like the fact that my daughter gets to have a cousin that she will probably grow up with.
This Christmas was one of those, “I could care less about presents, I'm trying to survive and keep my head above water”, Christmases.
Fact of the matter was I had 2 little girls who still believe in the magic that is Christmas. They look forward to putting up the tree and somehow miraculously presents appear under that tree when they wake up in the morning – the magic. I had already purchased a Nook Color for my daughter. I fretted over the fact that I couldn’t get one for my cousin.
I was beside myself because I didn’t know what to do. I was broke and I had absolutely no idea what I would be able to do for my little cousin. Thank God my grandmother sent me $50 bucks and 15 minutes before Wal-mart closed on 12/24 I walked in there searching for loot.
It wasn’t much but I got enough to put something under the tree. But still, I couldn't ignore the look on my cousins face when my daughter opened her Nook. It was heart wrenching. It’s like I have 2 little daughters and can’t do for both of them. What’s a mom to do??
Their mom is in the hospital an hour away and will eventually be put into a nursing home - for God knows how long - to heal. Am I being a tad whiny about the situation? I’m a substitute teacher, barely working 3 days a week. My husband hasn’t found a job yet. I have nothing.
To say the least, they were happy though. That’s all that really matters. We didn’t take any pictures though.
Merry Christmas. Oh yeah, Happy New Year
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