I am going to be starting my first year-long journey with my church studying and learning about how to be more like Christ. I am excited. the time is flying by so fast and I dont have any more time to waste. I dont want to look back on my life and place its happenings along side the bible and not measure up because I did not do the least of which I was called to do. I am reading What Really Counts for Women and there are a couple of things that have stuck out in my mind as I am reading.
I have always measured my worth on how people saw me. I have always wished I had tons of friends like the people I read about or the blogs I read where there are these women who are BFFs and do things for their friends and confide in each other......From the time that I was a little girl, whenever I found a BEST friend, she would always end up moving away or growing up a little to the point where I wasnt "friend worthy".......I have never understood it.
My 3rd grade friend Bonnie.....I remember her the most. She had freckles all over her face and a long pony tail. I loved her to death as my best friend but then she moved. She would write to me but then I moved and we lost contact. Then I met Rachel Miranda. We went to elementary school together - I was over her house everyday, we would go skating and sing stupid songs. Then I moved away. In 5th grade I met Echo or rather she met me. She was the type of girl books are written about to explain the "New Girl" who turned popular - that was Echo. She was athletic, pretty, nice........and she was my good friend. I remember she took me and my little sister to go horse back riding. I havent been on a horse since. Then I moved away. I met up again with Rachel Miranda at junior high school but by that time she was too cool for me and basically acted like I didnt exist........
My sophomore year in high school I met Kamaria - then she moved away as well. Then I met Desha, Shannon, Kristy and Morgan - we trekked to Vegas after graduation. I never saw them again.
Now I am on the verge of 30 and there is not one person in my life that connects me with my past. I dont have a best friend. I dont even have a good friend...well not in this societies definition of the word. But I do have Jesus and I guess when the time comes he will give me what I need.
2 comments:
Moving around makes it very hard to connect and stay connected. Believe me I know. I was the same way. I had best friends, but we all lost contact, or I became unworthy. But, never give up. When you find that one true friend, it's all worthwhile. And having a bunch of friends is not all it's cracked up to be. One true friend outshines all the others.
Keep walking in faith, build your life on Him and you will be suprised where life will take you. It's a wonderful walk. I've learned to always hold on to hope, never give up. God never gives up on us. :)
Thank you Omah...it is difficult. I know God always knows what he is doing.....and when it comes down to it, he is the best friend that I could ever have.
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