Dark Mornings, Deep Thoughts

My Live signature is back!! Yay!! So today was the first day of my Little Fire Promise.  With my miscarriage in 2009and this new trial I faced in December 2010, something has got to give.  I know it is me. 



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                             Give
I have to give more of myself
Give myself a chance
Give my body a chance
Give my body more water
Give my body more care
Give my body more exercise
Give my body a reason to live
Give my spirit more JOY!
Give my husband a reason a reason to want to be with me.......he really doesn't need much motivation but a little extra goes a long way.

Ultimately, give this baby that God will bless us a with a chance.  Notice I didn't say fighting chance.  I don't want our next child to have to fight to live unless it is something beyond my control.  My body is within my control so as I sat looking up at the ceiling I really couldn't see because I didn't have my glasses on, I fought with myself for 35 minutes before I finally got up out of that creaky, noisy bed where the coils vibrate right up under you if you pass gas, got dressed in some old clothes, put on Turbo Jam and commenced to kicking my own butt Chalene style.

Wasn't easy.  Oh what joy I felt when the DVD started to skip and then finally stopped altogether with 10 mins left out of the 45 minute workout.  I laughed, I almost cried with relief!!  I got 35 minutes of exercise in though!!  Yay!!