We Cant Keep Meeting Like This

Well so much has happened. Cant tell it all because it is hard. First I found out I was pregnant on 11-30-09. Boy oh boy. I have the name picked out and everything - Gamaliel A. Madden - Gamaliel is from the bible in the book of Acts and it means Gods Reward. Perfect name. Dont understand why I got preggo at this time but it happened. YAYYY - prenatal vitamins - hair growth - YEAH BABY!!
Flash forward to 12-25-09, stomachs been hurting for about 3 days - thought it was a bladder infection. Went to hospital anyway because I am high risk. It was not good. I waited and waited for the ultrasound tech to show me some signs of life in my belly - they never came. All that was there was an empty sac and I was diagnosed with a blighted ovum.

I have never heard of it and was so surprised about how common it is. I couldnt even talk to the doctor; my husband couldnt either. We thought we couldnt have children because we have been trying for 2 years now. It just was not meant to be. I am sad, my faith was slightly shaken and for an instant I was angry at God. But then I remembered who he was and that everything happens in season.

This situation among others brought my husband and I closer to each other and closer to God. I am thankful for life that I have and for the Joy that God has given me. I am still almost bald, still a gorgeous chunky chica and still here. To God be the Glory.

Hang in there ladies - it is always darkest before the dawn and God does his best work when it is dark in your life - he loves the night shift.