Babies Breath

Since the big development on Monday, I have been a salad of emotions and questions!  Is this the right time, how did this happen? Is this for real?  Am I having a miscarriage?  Why couldn't my husband pay this much attention to me before?  Is Gamaliel a good name?  Do I really want to get fatter?  How am I going to lose the weight after? Where is the baby going to sleep?  Where am I going to sleep - we have no bed.  Am I going to be able to pursue acting - to at least start again?  I have no insurance, how am I going to pay for doctors visits? 

And on and on and on.  My husband told me to quit it and stop worrying.  I have to tell you this is the most confident I have ever seen him the entire almost 5 years we have been together (2 unmarried).  I mean he is actually acting like....like.....like.........ummmm..........well - a MAN.  So many times in since we have been married I have wanted him to take the initiative, be the man of the house, be involved in grown-up stuff - but it was never there - just my nagging.

But now - I don't know what to think except to just be thankful. 

I was reading my fellow bloggerina over at Women's Marriage Ministy and Aimee has some insight to the languages of men and women - blue and pink respectively and where we get those hamburgers from - you gotta read the blog to understand.  After reading her post I realized that I too need to stop jumping to conclusions with my husbands, look at a situation and SEE it for what it is, not what I assume it is.

I am very happy that my hubby is actually showing me some love now that I am preggo - not that he wasn't doing it before but it just seems like I gave him a reason to be proud to be my husband.  I know I didn't do it alone and I know this child is a miracle from God.  I can only pray that he continues to bless me and that he continues to encourage me to praise him even in the valleys. 

I look forward to the new levels of faith this journey will take me on.